I just have to do what I can
I’d love to be one of these people who have spreadsheets showing how many blog posts they’ve written or plan to write. Or someone who has a content diary or plan their content months in advance.
Or to be someone who writes several blog posts in advance and schedules publication of them while they write the next batch.
The stark reality is that I will never, or could ever, be one of those lucky people. Yes, that’s what I said, lucky. Lucky because they are so sorted and organised. I used to be like that, once.
Now, with my MS fog brain, my short days and lack of concentration, I have no chance of ever achieving those things.
But would I want to? The thing about writing is that it should be spontaneous. I suppose if you’re writing a book, you have to have some discipline, but discipline is a different thing from organisation.
I would find it difficult to write a batch of blogs ready to schedule thei publication in advance. I write what I feel when I feel it.
The thing is, though everybody’s different. With my MS I can’t really plan other than to make a to do list. Because I never know how I’m going to feel from one day to the next.
I’ve got used to the way I am. I can never go back, only forward. This pandemic has imposed even more restrictions on my life. But I have to live in the hope that at some point in the not too distant future things will be better.
That’s how I’ve learned to live without ‘goals’. Knowing and accepting that I can.